I’ve been blogging on and off since 2012, so there have been a lot of changes, not only in my blog but in my life. I can’t count how many times I’ve wiped the slate clean and started over again. I think when i first started out, I was just beginning to navigate the blogging world, I didn’t know what to talk about, I didn’t know what people wanted to read and I was insecure in my blogging abilities. Fast forward to February 2016 when my now husband finally convinced me to take my blog onto YouTube. It was terrifying, I didn’t know what to expect, I didn’t know how people would react. I honestly was so afraid of anyone I knew actually finding me on YouTube. What would they think?
For awhile I’ve been thinking about if I want to quit YouTube and just go back to plain-old blogging. I mean, with blogging I could just sit down, write out my thoughts and ideas, add a few pictures and I’m done. YouTube requires a lot more work and it has become such a saturated platform that it’s hard to get people to even view your videos. After a lot of thought, I decided I would stay on YouTube. As saturated as the market is, I genuinely enjoy making videos and I feel like the process has not only helped me overcome some anxiety, but also allowed me to come out of my shell a bit. I sat down and watched some of my old videos the other day and I was so shy, so timid, still looking at my videos to this day, I don’t let my personality come through enough and I think that will be the biggest change on my blog. I gotta just let go, let people see who I am, what makes me unique. I think this redirection has a lot to do with me personally, over the past year I’ve gone through personal, emotional and professional changes. I began to realize what I want, where I’m going. I do things for me and I’ve built a wall between me and the people that have hurt me. I’m turning over a new leaf in my life, one where I surround myself with positivity.